Thursday, October 12, 2006
Complications of the Heart.
Heys.
The heart is one complicated organ. With the circulations and the blood pumping in the ventricles and flowing into the atriums through veins and arteries to the lungs and to the body. Sheesh. What a handful to memorize i tell you. But it occured to me that that's probably why the "heart" feels so much. Pain. Joy. Love. Anger. Sadness. All sealed in this complicated organ. Feelings running all over the place through the bloodstream. Feelings from the heart. And we wonder why does life have to be complicated. That's just because our very selves are complicated. Made of intricate and detailed precisions of flesh, blood and bone.
It's funny when one small complication,in your body, as it grows can bring drastic effects. Just like a small complication you face in your life. No matter how small it starts. When it grows, suddenly BAM! It hits you in the face. And you suddenly lose yourself. In a sea of emotions running all over the place. Like blood in your body.
My very point of this rant right now is that nothing is simple. Nothing. Even though it may seem simple, it isn't. I know it probably just boils down to how you look at it, as people might say. You make it complicated. You make a big deal of it. But what if it is a big deal? What if it does take up a lot of your energy and time and thinking power? Over this "small" issue. You're bound to have many "small" similar issues anyway right? Well, i just think that every small thing counts. No matter how small. No matter how petty or minute. It matters. There's no perfectionist talk here coz i am not one. I am just one who thinks it is important to take into account every small thing. Anyway, that's how God is going to judge us later on. So why ignore the small things in life? Why think that these small things do not matter to anyone? It will matter to someone. So whatever you feel, savour it. Embrace every little emotion and feeling. Embed yourself so deeply that when u feel, you feel wholeheartedly. Use every single detail there is, of your complicated heart.
Anyway, what i'm battling here is not the feeling of taking things for granted. It is not the feeling of not caring that every small thing counts. It is how to look at the bigger picture. When things are, at orientation, complicated.
~Shaira~ xoxoxo
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